Thought Processing

[Eddie Fox]

WADDUP WADDUP?!?!?!?!

I am so excited to be here and to have this game get started. I’ve only played in a couple of ORGs, but I’m ready to dominate ! Unfortunately, when I saw the tribe reveal, I was nahhhhht really feeling it. The people I talked to and liked the most for the first day or two were basically ALLLLLL on the other team. I’m mainly referencing Jefra, Chase, and Christa. So basically my initial reaction was that I was on team suck. I was happy to be with Tracy though, we talked a lot too.

Then we get to the challenge. I’m normally pretty bad in challenges so whenever I’m leading the charge, it’s not a good sign. I can see that the other tribe is in beast mode too so I become disheartened. But I decide I’ll still just post whenever I can so that when I suck in future challenges it’ll hopefully help me out lol. As the challenge progressed though, a lot of people started getting it into gear. So now I am very hopeful for my tribe. Hopefully we can win the next challenge.

So, my impressions of my tribe mates, you ask? I love me some Brenda. We only talked once but she shot right up as my favorite. Plus, she was awesome in the challenge. Like I said, Tracy is cool but I’m already kinda sketchy about whether or not I could trust her. Shawna was funny when we talked but the conversation died quickly. Keith was alright, but we haven’t talked actually being divided into tribes. A possibility for dead weight. I haven’t talked to Morgan and she didn’t even vote, so that’s a possibility for some more dead weight. Tyson is alright, boring though. On a related note, I think Darrah is taking my comments personally so I should STFU.

I also do not trust the fact that so many people are playing in this game and Venezuela right now with the same screen names. It basically makes me already very weary of Tyson and Shawna. I’m not worried about the people on the other tribe right now though, but would be if we ended up on the same team at any point.

Next, I would like to just get something out there because I’m pretty against it happening. But in the other Survivor game I played the host was okay with it and it seems many others see it as unavoidable. Hence, I don’t want to be a sucker if it’s a given it occurs. So, I figured I would just tell you it’s happening. Talk about suspense, am I right?? It’s about cross tribal communicating. Jefra has been PMing me a lot over the past few days. I don’t wanna tell her to stop so I don’t fuck up our relationship incase we’re ever together, so I’ve tried to just let the convo die a few times but she’ll just bring up new questions or whatever. Then today she asks me about an alliance between me, her, Tracy, and Keith. I dunno I feel like that THAT KID right now tattling and all, but the whole thing feeling dirty and I figured you should know.

Anyway, ew sorry about that! I don’t want to end on such a negative note. The idol brought some excitement to me! Not that I will have any real chance of finding it. I’m not good at shit like that, but maybe someone I become close with will crack the code.

[Whitney Duncan]

Yes, you can talk to the other tribe.

[Pete Yurkowski]

Yeah its really almost impossible to stop people from talking to the other tribe so it is okay if you want to

[Eddie Fox]

Okay sweet as long as you guys don't mind

[Eddie Fox]

Woooooohooooo for no tribal council!!!!!! I was not confident in my team winning either but we pulled it out! Team suck no longer! Except Morgan and (somewhat) Keith.

So like I said (I think) Tracy and I are in an alliance. She approached Brenda about it being the 3 of us too, which I love, but it's weird cause we specifically talked about waiting to expand lol. But whatever. I talked to Brenda and made sure she knows she's my number 1. I'm going to keep backup plans closely lined up, but she's my girl for now.

Not much else is going on over here. I see the high number of people playing this game and Venezuela concurrently as a potential threat, but there's nothing I can do about it for now. I also think Tracy/Jefra/Keith are a pregame too, but again, nothing I can do now.

[Eddie Fox]

#backonthesuckteam
Just waiting to see how much we'll be down by when I get out of class

[Eddie Fox]

I thought the best offense was a good defense???

[Eddie Fox]

Keith or Morgan? Keith or Morgan? Idk! I think Keith going could be good because it'll weaken Tracy a little bit, who's already strong enough with her HII (did I say she told me she has it? I totally put her on the spot by telling her it was gone and she caved and told me ) Shawna is fueling this vote Keith movement btw. However, is Morgan really ever going to be of any use to me? That's really a 50/50 to me.

I dunno, I've already made myself central enough in the first few challenges, that I need to fade into the background as unconcerned about who goes and like I'm willing to just follow the lead of others.

Tribe swap by the way? Yes please!

[Eddie Fox]

Voting between Morgan and Keith was a very hard decision for me. I knew I was the swing vote and there were strong pros/cons to both. Ultimately, I decided that Morgan was more likely to be helpful in this next challenge (check) and that her lack of ties could make her more directly useful to my positioning (so far, check).

Moving on, this last challenge was just even more demoralizing. Especially since Brenda is probably going home. I really wish she hadn't gone inactive so that I could try and break up the potential Shawna/Tyson alliance sooner rather than later.

Wrote that last night and forgot to upload it #stonerproblems

[Eddie Fox]

Yayyyyy I am genuinely excited about this team. Both tribes are strong but I think we have a slight edge. We'll find out in the upcoming challenge.

I am feel that, as long as old Ahmicks don't target me right away, that this tribe should give me some room to strategize. I ended up with the two people I trust the most from my old tribe. Although I don't think Tyson or Shawna would have necessarily turned. Anyway, I also ended up with some of the strong performing old Ahmicks. Chase and I were immediately cool at the beginning, so hopefully he didn't take our exchange the other night seriously/personally! Darrah was apparently on the outs and I think I can work with Erinn. I'm not going to over think things yet, but I think this combo of people will allow me to do some solid maneuvering. However, I don't like being on a tribe with 2 idols and 6 people

[Eddie Fox]

So prior to a few minutes ago, I've felt like I was at a junior high dance. You got the old Ahmicks over on one side (the girls) and the old Mukwas just staring back (the boys). Both sides know they need to approach the other side, but no one wants to make the first move.

Now it's time to decide whether or not I trust Erinn/Darrah enough to cut Morgan. I think trying to blindside one of them (Darrah because she has the idol) could be the smarter move for me, but 1) I don't know if I can trust Chase, and, 2) Tracy seems to be dead set on getting rid of Morgan, but without wanting me to realize that. Hmmmmm, sketchy sketchy.

I'm going to need a fat blunt to work this all out in my head.

[Eddie Fox]

The dysfunctionality that is this tribe is hilarious. So, if I am to understand everything right:

Erinn is dead set Morgan. Boring.

Tracy and me agreed to it but then talked about approaching Chase with the info that they want him out next, as well. Then we could vote one of Erinn or Darrah out now. But Tracy seems to secretly be set on voting Morgan and pushing that move off.

But now Morgan is trying to lead the charge against Chase. Apparently she's got Darrah on board with it and made it seem as if Darrah approached her. It was an offline im though so I don't know what's transpired.

And then I don't even really want any of those plans. Though I'm not sure what I want yet. Like I've said, would be good to blindside Darrah and get an idol out. But I like Darrah now that we've talked and think we could work together if we were both at the merge. I love Chase so him going would make me sad. However, I know he's got tight connections within old Ahmick and is probably dying to get back with them. Morgan going is stupid because she's not particularly strategic. And I don't want to put my self down in numbers and vulnerable so easily.

[Eddie Fox]

We were doing so good in the challenge that I got my hopes up! But that little 2 piece fucker ship was right in the middle of all my other shots. #suckteam2.0

I'm sad that Erinn is the (supposed) target. I like her, but oh well, that's the game. We haven't talked since the Darrah vote outside the tribe chat anyway.

Last night I was VERRRRY tempted to pull off a double idol blindside and get Tracy out. It dawned on me that it would be the easiest and safest time. After a lot of internal debate though, I decided that it wasn't worth it in the long term. I didn't want to give oldAhmik the immediate numbers advantage and I thought Tracys excess of connections would leave me with less people to work with at the merge if I did. I also decided I could definitely trust her for the next few rounds anyway, so it would be too preemptive of a move.

Chase and I formed a bromantic alliance. I'm not putting all my eggs in this basket, but I could see us working together long term.

I still think Morgan should be a solid and loyal pawn for some time too. She's also somewhat crazy and has no tact though, so she'll have to be kept clued in on a need to know basis.

Supposedly at the merge it's going to me, chase, Tracy, Christa, and Jefra. I'm down for that group to get me trough a couple rounds, but then I will reassess and regroup if necessary.

I think Jefra may be the biggest threat in the game. Me and her have been showmancing, but I do not trust her to protect me till the end. I also think she's more than likely socially well connected to the majority of people in the game. I dunno, we shall see but she's officially on my radar.

[Eddie Fox]

test

[Eddie Fox]

Yah I'm good on the hopelessly searching for the HII....#notmything

I am SO excited to be at the merge. In my life I've never been much of a team player so being at the merge now I'm really in my element. I was even more excited to win this first immunity challenge. #fuckyes. I didn't think my time would win either so it was a pleasant surprise. It's probably just paranoia but Jefra's time being so close to mine and since she went after me (and told me before that she monitors post counts for challenges) makes me think she was specifically trying to beat me and just miscalculated or something. I dunno, whatever...just keeping it in mind. I wish I could trust Jefra more cause we've talked since the beginning and have been showmancing, but I just can't shake my sketchy vibe. She seems different since the merge too.

I don't want to lose an old Mukwa in this first round, but of course that's what half of my alliance (Chase, Christa, Jefra) will most likely want. Tracy already told me she wouldn't push otherwise too. BUT THAT'S STUPID. I'm going to further assess the situation tonight and tomorrow morning and see what I could possibly do to send an original Ahmik home.

IDK I'm just generally uncomfortable with my position in the game, but also cautiously optimistic at the same time. I don't feel like I'm genuinely anyone's #1 person right now and am not sure where I stand with them but I guess this would be my current breakdown:

Chase: I love Chase. If he proves himself loyal to me, then I would take it all the way with him (#thatswhatshesaid). I just think he's tighter to oldAhmik than he's letting on though.
Morgan: She knows that I saved her in the Keith vote and I've been consistently putting in the groundwork to keep her loyal to me. IDK that's there's many scenarios where we'd take it to the end together, but the trust I feel with her is enough for me to want her around for awhile.
Tracy: There's a pretty size-able gap between these two. Even though Tracy and I talk to more strategy and have been more closely aligned, I think her numerous connections could result in her cutting me at some point. If we make it through these first few rounds together, I would feel much better about it, especially if some of other closer allies left.
Tyson/Shawna get these two spots just because of old Mukwa loyalties. I put Tyson before Shawna because me and him talk more and he's less of a threat. Plus, #brosbeforehoes.
Like I said, I love Jefra and I wish I could trust her more . I think proposing to her on the finale would help me secure an All Star spot . She's playing much harder than she lets on though. Christa is cool people. Depending how our alliance goes, me/her/chase could work well to accomplish some things.
John and Woo are even. Woo and I's conversation died after like 10 minutes because his 1-3 word answers were not enthralling to me. John approached me after the results and was saying how he's open to new alliances and such, but then took like half an hour to answer me when I actually asked how he was leaning for the vote and just now answered me as I'm writing this actually. Conveniently this response comes right after Christa and I (read: Christa) settled on her telling Woo to vote Shawna. #shadyshady

My ADD thought process probably makes me really hard to follow. I also just leave key chunks of information out at times lol.